marty
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Post by marty on Dec 7, 2009 22:33:32 GMT -5
I'm in a deep funk. I've been trying to hide it, and that's not working anymore, so here goes. The economy slammed my business last year hard, real hard, dig a hole hard. And it hasn't improved nearly enough this year. Three weeks ago I tore one of my gluteus muscles (ok you're allowed to make jokes about that), which caused the other muscles in the leg to spasm to the point of screaming pain. I couldn't stand up for a day, couldn't walk for a week. Got by on four or five hours of interupted sleep, waking up with more spasms. I haven't been able to work since the injury, though I have managed to drive for a few days now, so I can run material for the crew and get them going again. I thought the muscle thing would last a week, ten days at the most. Towards the end of the third week I logged on to OTF and it was unavailable while they installed the new format. Then the temperature plummeted. It's eighteen on the front porch right now (7:30PM my time) and we're expecting single digits by morning. I'm tired, I'm sore, and, yes, to be honest, I'm a little scared. Thoughts?
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Post by roxanna on Dec 7, 2009 23:13:22 GMT -5
Marty, i'm so sorry to hear this. seems to be a double whammy that's hit you -- or more like a tripple. i can't offer a resolution to the economy (or i'd be in Washington, wouldn't i? lol) and i don't even play a doctor on tv, so no help with the muscle pain, just sympathy for both situations. but the funk? that i know something about, and it isn't anything to fool around with, given your other troubles and the fact that we are headed into the dark days of the year. please consider seeing your doctor about depression help -- i may be over-reacting here, and out of order, for which i apologize. but even if your funk is due to real & particular things, that most likely will resolve themselves eventually, the mental drain can become pernicious and should be addressed. we want you happy and healthy! hang in there. i'll be thinking of you.
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debio
Elementary School
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Post by debio on Dec 7, 2009 23:35:10 GMT -5
Marty, wow. When it rains it pours,huh? While I personally haven't had a depressive bout, it is something a few people close to me have gone through. It is good that you are discussing it. And if you feel hopeless make sure you talk to a medical professional about it. Don't let it go too long, it's too hard! Get a good night sleep and talk to someone who loves you!
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jeana
Elementary School
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Post by jeana on Dec 8, 2009 0:15:14 GMT -5
You're certainly not alone. There are alot of people biting their nails over the current economic times. Though you may be the only one here with a broken butt, to boot (no pun intended). Only time heals a wound like that, though a dr. can give you something to take the edge off the pain. You may need some physical therapy to help with the healing and prevent a relapse (which is far better than a prolapse in that area).
I'm also a little dismayed by the more than rudely sudden onset of winter. But in our climes, the weather is whimsical and will do the whole roller coaster thing all winter. Cruddy today, fantastic in a week (or two or three). And soon, we'll be on the clime to longer days. That's the way I have to look at it or I'd crawl in bed this time of year and pull the cover up over my eyes and not get up (or shave my legs) till the first nice day of the next year. None of wants that to happen (or wants to keep that image in their heads). We'll try to give you things to laugh about because if you can't laugh at others, who can you laugh at?
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marty
Kindergardener
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Post by marty on Dec 8, 2009 0:46:56 GMT -5
Thank you, All! I am familiar with depression; I had a couple of bouts with it when I was younger. This doesn't feel like that, but I'm monitoring carefully. I think it is more about the number of things I can't do anything about - the weather, the economy, the d**n forum - hjas left me feeling a little more helpless than I'm at all comfortable with. If any of you know the Red Green Show, his men's lodge has a saying I can relate to right now: "I'm a man, but I can change, if I have to, I guess." I'm also familiar ith Red's best expression: 'Remember, I'm pulling for you; we're all in this thing together." That's a agood one to remember
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debio
Elementary School
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Post by debio on Dec 8, 2009 7:19:10 GMT -5
Loved RedGreen! I think he is my neighbor!
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Post by Gord on Dec 8, 2009 9:24:49 GMT -5
Marty, I don't want to sound over the top fundamentalist, 'cause I'm not that kind of a person, but maybe a heart-to-heart with the man upstairs would help. If he's not listening, then a long walk with someone who is mostly ears. Oh yeah, the butt thing. Maybe a long drive.
I sometimes find that just laying my problems on another set of ears helps lessen the load.
The place I work at was bought out by the evil Americans, causing me much funk. I have never worked for a foreign company, and I am more than a little patriotic. I held a lot of anger. Then I told management how I felt and they explained to me that the deep pockets and great opportunities of partnering to become international would have big payoffs for our company. My reply was, enough talking about you, let's talk about me for a while.
Took it to the man upstairs and decided change was in order. Took month to get the guts up to quit given the economy etc. but it looks like its working out. Paths change. We stitch together what we can. Maybe your down time will give you a chance to clear your head, sharpen the saw, and come back with a clearer, different picture of where you and your company are going.
Good luck. I'm pulling for ya.
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Post by regality on Dec 8, 2009 13:27:19 GMT -5
Marty, this is going to sound dumbass simplistic, but the very act of smiling, even if it's just a fake raising of the mouth corners, stimulates the production of certain feel-better endorphins(?). Other than that, all I can say is that I'm thinking the goodest thoughts I can for you.
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marty
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Post by marty on Dec 8, 2009 13:37:48 GMT -5
Again, my deepest thanks to all of you. I'm feelin' better this morning. It all just hit at once yesterday.
The crew is out working this morning, and I've been staying warm in the office and feeling a bit guilty, so I'm going to head out and see how they're doing and take them out for a hot lunch.
See you again this eve.
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marty
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Post by marty on Dec 8, 2009 19:56:06 GMT -5
I'm feeling much better this eve. I got in about a half day on the job site. I didn't push myself and paid attention to what my body was saying (except the "it's too damn cold to be workin' out here you idjit"). Laid the best part of a back patio. ;D
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marty
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Post by marty on Dec 8, 2009 19:57:45 GMT -5
Marty, this is going to sound dumbass simplistic, but the very act of smiling, even if it's just a fake raising of the mouth corners, stimulates the production of certain feel-better endorphins(?). Other than that, all I can say is that I'm thinking the goodest thoughts I can for you. It's not "dumbass"; it works ;D Thanks!
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beejay
Brand New Baby
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Post by beejay on Dec 8, 2009 20:21:35 GMT -5
Marty, these gardeners are the best. They helped sustain me through the 4 years that I cared for the The Gardener as she suffered down hill with Alzheimers. They know how to be here for you. BJ
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marty
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Post by marty on Dec 8, 2009 20:33:20 GMT -5
Marty, these gardeners are the best. BJ It's really quite profound. These are people I've never met face to face, and yet I feel like I know them as well as my friends here whom I see often. It is so good that we are keeping it all together through the tumultuous forum change.
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